Saturday, May 05, 2007

Sometimes i still don't get it
Why people are laughing at me but it don't matter.
When will there be a turning point for me?
I've yet to find that.
But everytime i tried, it seems that i failed a thousand miles journey.
Beatings everywhere, chaos in me.
Mom, i'm lost.
I don't know if what i've done are right.
Apart of me has died and somehow i feel that i'm not welcomed in the family and friends.
Mom, the beatings you gave me i've yet to endure.
And i could never let it go cs you're my mother.

Dad, you kept telling me to be a good kid.
You left me when i need you and so did the family.
I feel that there's a mistake in everything i've done
Isn't it amazing? amazing that something beautiful could be apart that is so ugly
I feel that i'm the next in line to leave.
Yes, they will never cry if i left or die
If i had a motorbike like my big bro, i had left you guys long ago.
If i had ran away, you could find me in Sentosa.
Why? i do that? cs i could never find peace in me.

All the sacrifice i made was all thrown away never appreciated.
You people are funny, humorous i must say.
When in need, you seeked for me to be your companion.
But after that, you threw me away.
I've made it this far now, and i'm not quiting now.
No matter if i'm here or there i'm not welcome
So way away i'll be, way away from here i'll be
How it feels to be alone and not appreciated.

I've yet to find myself,
My peace & tranquility.

5/05/2007 12:13:00 PM; i wan to jump frm lvl 15, n see if landed properly

the kid.

Huzairul / iRul
*- school: Yuan Ching Sec
*- b'dae: 01 Jan 1992
*- status: Bassist/Guitarist

my <3.
*- .my Dearest
*- .the Four Brothers & Elfy
*- .my Brothers of YCs
*- .my KC's
*- .the 4o2's
*- .my Family & Cousins
*- .Chocolates

my HATES.
*- .BackStabbers
*- .being SLAVED by RICH PEOPLE
*- .Liars
*- .Hypocrites
*- .those who JUDGE me
*- .SKINHEADS & CULTURES
*- .SonawaB*tch
*- .Being LEFT OUT

MY WISHES.
*- .get my Electric Guitar this year
*- .be a good Bassist/Guitarist
*- .hab a good YEAR
*- .be Eighteen years old NOW!
*- .laptop.=
*- .PARKOUR from my house LVL 2
*- .STOP SMOKING
*- .PSP

getFCUKEDhere.

SONGSinmyHEAD.

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