Us, one piece. So happy together~
Again, well i remembered that Farah's surgery will be on wed. And she told me that, she will not be in schoold on wed. This is first time that such thigs are happening to me, i don't know why. Hmm, her surgery will start at ard 1230pm i think and it will last for 6 hours straight. I just wish i could be there.
Our conversation:
Farah: I tadi nga fikirkn abt the surgery. I am scared. U, isit ok if i were to wait for you till the school ends 2mrw. Cs i wanna spend time with you before the day of the surgery.
From that sentece she told me, i felt like she was going to leave me forever. It reminds me of my friend who died because of cancer. It was just like this, he told us that he wanted to spend valuable time with us, members before he leave for the other world. But i know i made a plan to go to the gym, but then i told her. Both is important but you are more important. I told her that i'll spend time with her at the process of going hme. But my mind's started to dig out somethings which about the MT remedial which didn't attend last week. I think i will be punished with detention. Farah then told me that she would wait for me to finish my punishment. I feel like crying when she said that. I really wanna spend time with you! I'm like fucking sad.
me: I would give you everything you need before your surgery. I will hug you the way we used to like the past, give you kisses that you'll never forget. And i'm gonna miss the old you who kissed me!
Fara: Wee~! thnkiew. I am so gonna missh you.
I felt weak and felt like breaking down. It's like she having cancer or a disease that will kill. I would spend time with her. To all of you out there who's having a gf/bf please treasure them. Just look at me, i always fume up when mistakes happened and Fara would just relax. I promised her that i'll change. If only i could hold her hands as she was doing the surgery. I will miss the old times. Just you and me at your hse. Wednesday 24 marked the day of me getting laid down by emotions. I shall named January 24 2007 the 'Invaded Emotions' where all my emotions will be messed up. I harts her lots even words can't describe it. To tell you guys the truth she is my longest gf. And i treasure every moments we spent together through thick and thin. Yea i keep that it mind aite honey?. Now you just gotta have faith in yourself that you'll clear your obstacle with me in your heart and in your mind.
24 Jan.
Irul laid down my emotions, left with brothers to care. Until then
Toodles~ I MISSH HERR! I WANNA BE DERE FOR HER!!
Us, one piece. So happy together~
Huzairul / iRul